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A week that was

13-Nov-11

After a week that was, I did not fail my exam so that’s a plus.

I’m having trouble coping with the idea of my aunt’s body in the cargo hold of an airplane currently over the Atlantic somewhere. For a person who gave love so willingly, and always looked past the faults of everyone, she died without dignity. She died several thousand miles away from home, and a little over one hundred miles from her second home.

Compounding this is the fact that this particular chapter in my class is dealing with acid base imbalances – I’m having some difficulty separating the clinical aspects from the reality a few days removed. Perhaps that’s a good thing – I thought my humanity was beaten out of me after that day in the OR.

No matter what our differences were, we all made that trip to see her go. And that does make it easier to deal. And even those who didn’t go contributed in some way. We all came together, and that makes me glad.

Ten more

02-Nov-11

After this, 10 more entries to 1,000. In one month, it’ll be eight years of this.

I’ll spare you the melodrama, but I don’t know what to do when either milestone is passed. It’s not that I have lost the interest in writing; rather, I don’t have anything to write except for a very narrow scope of the respiratory field.

I don’t want to be the jerk who constantly yammers about the field, so I try not to – but its what I really enjoy at the moment. That and puzzle quest… sweet sweet puzzle quest.

The kids have their own blog and that isn’t going away any time soon, and Lisa has her own blogs. Lately, this blog feels rather superfluous. I’m not a political commentator and I can’t bring myself to be angry about anything (burn out, I guess) and last years nablpomo was a major change in my usual policy about separating this blog for my private life… and I don’t see the need to revisit that, since I think I have said everything I wanted to say.

So. Now what, I guess.

A change in diet

31-Oct-11

Briefly: I was running, eating right and doing generally ok for myself, then got sick and hurt and fell off the wagon. Getting back on the wagon was rough going and then a freak accident forced me to do things I don’t generally like doing: going slow, sleeping and taking a long hard look at my habits.

First, sleep is good. I know this is an ongoing struggle for me, but I’m realizing that sleep isn’t doing ‘nothing’, it’s actually rather important. This seems like common sense, but I’ve always felt that I could get more accomplished if I sleep less. Not so. The last two weeks I went to bed close to 9pm and stayed in bed until 7am. I don’t feel wickedly awesome, but I feel… better.

Second, there’s been a food issue in our house. It’s no secret that we’ve had our issues – mine specifically is that I’m manic when it comes to food. I can eat and eat… and eat, and then other days I don’t eat at all. It’s not a conscious decision on my part in either scenario, and that’s what’s been plaguing me. Food (well, eating right) is not a habit, it’s work. Hard work for me, since I’m not used to observing of what I shovel into my face.

Speaking of which, third: what I eat. Last week I started eating just steel cut oats or oatmeal in the morning. Not a specific amount, but usually a full bowl (2.5-3 cups?) and it’s done wonders. Most importantly: I don’t feel like crap through the morning. I usually eat the stuff without any sugar or additives (it helps I like how it tastes).

On top of this, I’ve cut back on diet sodas and instead drink more tea and coffee with truvia.

Am I dieting? Not really, no, so I’m not proclaiming poundage lost or muscle gained, but I do feel better about life as the days go on, which is important given how lousy things have been.

I have a good feeling about 2012. Last year I felt this way about 2011 but as I kept Lisa, the year didn’t seem ‘right’. And it ended up being the case. But 2012? That’s a good number right there. Here’s hoping I’m right.

Puzzle quest HD

31-Oct-11

Chapter one went free for the iPhone last Friday. I snagged it and was immediately hooked. I ended up grabbing the hd version for the iPad for $2.

PQ is match 3 plus RPG. It is ridiculously addictive. The hd version is all three chapters with upgraded resolutions. Its close to 80 hours of gameplay.

Unbelievable deal. This + world of goo + battle for wesnoth + plants vs. zombies means I’ve been on my iPad more than any game system I own.

Seriously, I am seriously contemplating selling a couple of devices to move up to an iPad2. The kids and Lisa know that the iPad is my favorite device with no equal. Thanks, Steve Jobs.

Addendum: Mona Simpson’s eulogy to her brother Steve Jobs.

Observations, continued

20-Oct-11

A few nights ago, I stayed up late writing up a post for class, and I found myself wanting desperately to learn the ins and outs of the chemical reaction (Bohr, Haldane, Hamburger effects) of ventilation. When I finished, I kind of sat wondering what it is that triggers this sort of interest whereas college I was mostly bored with the whole experience (yes, I still look at college as a missed opportunity).

A few days ago, I picked up this app: Animoog, which is made by the venerable Moog music (worth the 99c and is worth the 29.99 which it will go up to at the end of the month – it is currently sitting at #1 in sales in the app store). I spent a few hours playing with it.

Last night I made this in Garageband:

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It is only 8 seconds long because I didn’t want to work with larger set until I figure out how everything works. It’s has five layers here: two of me playing the tabla (duet bwahaha), the ‘smart guitar’ (acoustic) playing the A minor chord, ‘smart bass’ Cello in A minor, and the drum machine doing a high hat and shaker (quiet, complex).

As I was working with this, I went downstairs to change the diapers around, noted the humidifier was full and fixed that. After that, I stood up and looked at the guitar, turned around and looked at all the instructional stuff relating to the guitar and wondered ‘why can’t I play the guitar?’

And then it made me wonder why I haven’t done a lot of things. Why haven’t I lost all the weight I want to lose? Why don’t I know more languages or read more books?

Going back to school made me realize I’m capable enough to do a lot of things and simply haven’t put the time in for anything else. I don’t want to roll into my forties being in the same situation… obviously, I’ll likely be an RT by then, but should that be my end goal forever and ever? No.

I’m not saying I’m going to succeed in doing anything above, but at least I’m mindful of what I’m capable of doing and the resources I have at my disposal.

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An update to the previous post about teaching Nora to read – she can read. No, not every single word or sentences but last night I gave her blocks with animal names on it that she’s never worked with before and I asked her to sound out the letters and figure out what the words are.

She did it. And she begged to keep going, but it was too close to bed time and she was getting a little feisty.

And that’s it: she was ready, but she needed to get over her mental block of relying solely on memorization. She can do it, and it’s clear she’s very proud of it, too.

Now the ‘problem’ is that this was she started all this by wanting learn her numbers, but now she has zero interest in that.

Next step is to bring up the chalkboard. When she gets on a roll, it’s like a torrent and the chalkboard is the fastest way to keep up with her.

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iOS 5.0 is very nice. I installed it on both my ipod and ipad. On the ipod, the feature set doesn’t bring the same sort of across the board improvement than what was brought to the ipad.

In sum, iOS5 has made me love my iPad even more (if that were possible) and convinced me to stick with android phones.

Steve Jobs said that the iPad was conceived before the iPhone, and I believe that the trickle down of ideas still continues. The iPad and the interface works so perfectly but on such a small device, android shines.

The Galaxy Nexus S is coming to Verizon, and it’ll likely be discounted by the time we’re able to upgrade, so that’s where I’m headed.

On Jobs, Fin

12-Oct-11

Last one. I think it’s funny (and poignant).

Jobs, part 2

11-Oct-11

Wow, ok. I’ll leave this here.

Liver transplant loophole

On Jobs and Apple

09-Oct-11

I think he was a visionary in terms of technology (primarily in user interfaces) and correctly plotted a course for Apple into the digital age, but nothing changes the fact that he was something of a jerk as a person.

And heck, I’m a jerk too for owning so many Apple products, built from backbreaking sweatshop labor conditions. I recognize I’m no saint.

But the deification of this guy has to stop eventually, yeah? If the CEO of Bank of America died (Brian Moynihan), would people be deifying him? If not, why not? The trajectories of BofA and Apple aren’t all that different. Heck, I believe BofA as a company is much more philanthropic than Apple has been.

In any case, here’s an article about him in gawker. There’s an authorized biography of him coming out sometime soon which should be fascinating.

“MY”

04-Oct-11

A few nights ago I was home alone with the kids and was tasked to put them to bed. After doing Isaac’s routine, it was time to put Nora to bed, which entails reading her stories and such.

The two books she picked had the word MY in the title. I decided it would be good practice for her to try learning the word MY.

The thing about Nora is that she never does anything until she’s ready. Sleeping through the night, eating with utensils, potty training, walking, sitting, whatever. That’s how she’s always been.

I didn’t think anything would come of this, but I figured hey, why not?

She started with her usual trick of memorization, and even though it was obvious she was just memorizing the position of the word on the page, I congratulated her and gave her effusive praise for trying so hard and figuring it out. I went back to it after reading the first story and of course she forgot the word and was making up stuff. I asked gently if she remembered reading the word before and she remembered, and then I had her read me the word from various pages without context.

She was frustrated by this exercise and I was about to stop, but something clicked in her head. I’m not sure what it was, but she suddenly was hunting for MY everywhere within the pages of the second story, even within other words. MY was a sight word now.

The next morning, she told Lisa about her new word.

Yesterday, she wrote MOM (she already knew MOM) but I asked her to write MY at the end of it, which she did. Once she did, I explained that she wrote MOMMY. And then I asked her to write MY in front of that, and once she did, I explained she wrote MY MOMMY. She was ecstatic.

This morning, before getting out of the car for school, she reminded me that her friend knew numbers and that she didn’t. She then asked if I could teach her numbers and more words.

I was stunned. And thrilled. She wants to learn.

And now we start.

Project

03-Oct-11

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We are going to play with the room layout since our goal is to make a room that the kids can play in regularly.